You know that feeling that you get right before an exam? Yeah thats the one, well today is my last exam and well, I have that feeling! The annoying thing is that the exam isn't until this afternoon so I now have to hang around while this feeling builds up and builds up until an uncontrolable panic attack sets in. I think I might be a little OTT there but I just hate afternoon exams. The only good thing that comes from them is that you can have that extra hour in bed, any more than an hour and you feel guilty. So, yeah, My last exam. It also happens to be my longest of 2hr30, which isn't the longest I know but i do not get the luxury of being able to go home and relax after this exam, no... I have to go to work. This can be a good thing though, it'll mean I will not be able to ponder over the exam whixh I would probably end up doing if I went home. This will only happen if we are busy so if your not busy this afternoon/this evening....pop down to WWX please!!!
All I shall say is that the feeling you get before you enter the exam....its a good thing, do not let it get you down. Nerves help you stay alert and awake which is only a good thing if you're entering a silent room for 2hr30 isn't it?
Roll on tonight
Friday, 24 June 2011
Monday, 6 June 2011
Happier times call for memory recall
Yesterday, I posted a rather sad and dull post and I promised that a nicer post was coming your way......well here it is. Read and enjoy!
There have been many times throughout my life that I will always remember for good reasons as they were happy times. For instance, last day of Sixth form was awsome for so many reasons. However, I would Like to start my memory recal further back in time, not as far as childhood dreaming, no, that would be ridiculous!
No I shall start in the last couple of years at secondary school. St. Georges never really was the best school but I never really cared when I was there. I had great times in that old falling down wreck of a school but it had character which the new build lacks tremendously by the way!!! No great times there came not only from its character but the people in it, well some of them any way. My friendship group was Awsome and there was nothing that would have gotten in the way of that. Prefect duties in the main building where we let kids in just to chase after them threatning them with detention and the laughs that we shared were some of the most memorable moments of my secondary school life.
To top off the events from St. Georges, such as end of year trips to Adventure Island...Epic times by the way....I would just like to thank a few people that made St. Georges, the best Secondary school I could have asked for. Abs, my bff, although we haven't really spoken or gotten together since the end of year 11, you were the best friend I could have asked for. Fun times, laughs and unforgettable moments will always stay in my mind no matter what and I promise after exams, we will catch up and have more epic times to remember.
Sam, you were the only one who shared the same want for the thrill factor as me, the only one who wanted to test out the biggest and best rides at Adventure Island but we managed to persade the others so all was well in the end. Benji, Lol well what can I say about you.....dead arms went a totally different level? I love the fact that you always thought you weere right when actually you really weren't but we let you off anyway cause we could barely understand a word you were saying haha! Oh and who else but Laurence, the person I have known for pretty much the majority of my life so I don't think it can be summed up in a couple of sentences but i'll give it a try. Although you always thought you were better at everything, deep down I know that this isn't really what you thought, I know that you did actually believe I was a decent cricket player way back in years 3-6. I can take the criticism as I know, well hope, that you didn't mean all of it :)
So that sums up Secondary school. Chatham House and Year 12 wasn't really that much fun for me, at one point I was debating leaving as I really thought things couldn't get much worse but then I met Kirby and she showed me that things weren't so bad after all....Thank you.
Year 13 however, has been the best year of my life!!!!! No Lie..... I have made some pretty awsome friends that actually like me for who I am not who society saids I should be!! ANNA, ALISON, CHARLOTTE, GRACE, JOE, NICOLA, ELODIE, LIZZY, KATRINA, OLIVIA, RUTH I love you all and I could never ask for better friends and I know that whatever life brings me, If I manage to get into the police force or not, you guys will be there for me, I hope so anyway otherwise this would have been for nothing ;)
Some of the memories that I have made from year 13 are undeniably some of the best anyone can ask for...Waka Waka at the end of year 12 just begins the list of things that I can go into. Singing in the rain, 5 Years time, Sherbert pips, the world, dip dip, downhill pursuit, big guns, air vents, water fight, hot tub, beach with the unbreakable bottle....I could go on and on and on and on and on but knowing me I will end up spelling something wrong so I shall bring it to an end here I think.........
Just want to say one last thing....thank you all for being there and I can safely say that without you, my life would have been and would always be ridiculously boring so thank you for making it worthwhile and absolutely fantastic!!!!!!!!!!!!!
There have been many times throughout my life that I will always remember for good reasons as they were happy times. For instance, last day of Sixth form was awsome for so many reasons. However, I would Like to start my memory recal further back in time, not as far as childhood dreaming, no, that would be ridiculous!
No I shall start in the last couple of years at secondary school. St. Georges never really was the best school but I never really cared when I was there. I had great times in that old falling down wreck of a school but it had character which the new build lacks tremendously by the way!!! No great times there came not only from its character but the people in it, well some of them any way. My friendship group was Awsome and there was nothing that would have gotten in the way of that. Prefect duties in the main building where we let kids in just to chase after them threatning them with detention and the laughs that we shared were some of the most memorable moments of my secondary school life.
To top off the events from St. Georges, such as end of year trips to Adventure Island...Epic times by the way....I would just like to thank a few people that made St. Georges, the best Secondary school I could have asked for. Abs, my bff, although we haven't really spoken or gotten together since the end of year 11, you were the best friend I could have asked for. Fun times, laughs and unforgettable moments will always stay in my mind no matter what and I promise after exams, we will catch up and have more epic times to remember.
Sam, you were the only one who shared the same want for the thrill factor as me, the only one who wanted to test out the biggest and best rides at Adventure Island but we managed to persade the others so all was well in the end. Benji, Lol well what can I say about you.....dead arms went a totally different level? I love the fact that you always thought you weere right when actually you really weren't but we let you off anyway cause we could barely understand a word you were saying haha! Oh and who else but Laurence, the person I have known for pretty much the majority of my life so I don't think it can be summed up in a couple of sentences but i'll give it a try. Although you always thought you were better at everything, deep down I know that this isn't really what you thought, I know that you did actually believe I was a decent cricket player way back in years 3-6. I can take the criticism as I know, well hope, that you didn't mean all of it :)
So that sums up Secondary school. Chatham House and Year 12 wasn't really that much fun for me, at one point I was debating leaving as I really thought things couldn't get much worse but then I met Kirby and she showed me that things weren't so bad after all....Thank you.
Year 13 however, has been the best year of my life!!!!! No Lie..... I have made some pretty awsome friends that actually like me for who I am not who society saids I should be!! ANNA, ALISON, CHARLOTTE, GRACE, JOE, NICOLA, ELODIE, LIZZY, KATRINA, OLIVIA, RUTH I love you all and I could never ask for better friends and I know that whatever life brings me, If I manage to get into the police force or not, you guys will be there for me, I hope so anyway otherwise this would have been for nothing ;)
Some of the memories that I have made from year 13 are undeniably some of the best anyone can ask for...Waka Waka at the end of year 12 just begins the list of things that I can go into. Singing in the rain, 5 Years time, Sherbert pips, the world, dip dip, downhill pursuit, big guns, air vents, water fight, hot tub, beach with the unbreakable bottle....I could go on and on and on and on and on but knowing me I will end up spelling something wrong so I shall bring it to an end here I think.........
Just want to say one last thing....thank you all for being there and I can safely say that without you, my life would have been and would always be ridiculously boring so thank you for making it worthwhile and absolutely fantastic!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, 5 June 2011
Denial
I think I have finally accepted the fact that I am emotionally immature. I always had an incline that I was but never wanted to admitt it. I do not think though, that this is always a bad thing but when you are trying to convince your parents that you are mature enough to start living your life, it can become a bit of a problem. Luckily today, when this occoured to me, I managed to hide away so no one actually found out....phew!!!
You may want to know how and this event occoured and I would love to share all but I do not think I am ready to share all information and its not really my place to say anyway. All I will say is that it has to do with family situation. What gets to me is that I want to stay strong for my family and be there when they need a helping hand or a reassuring thumb!
So from now on a change of mood is necerssairy, I need to talk control of my emotions and not let everything get me down. I need to realise that I can be sad but that does not technically mean I have to cry. I think this is possible but it will take time and a lot of effort. I have to remember to staty strong otherwise all will not be ok
OK i know this was another misrable post but next time I promise it will be nice and cheery
You may want to know how and this event occoured and I would love to share all but I do not think I am ready to share all information and its not really my place to say anyway. All I will say is that it has to do with family situation. What gets to me is that I want to stay strong for my family and be there when they need a helping hand or a reassuring thumb!
So from now on a change of mood is necerssairy, I need to talk control of my emotions and not let everything get me down. I need to realise that I can be sad but that does not technically mean I have to cry. I think this is possible but it will take time and a lot of effort. I have to remember to staty strong otherwise all will not be ok
OK i know this was another misrable post but next time I promise it will be nice and cheery
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